One

I want one day of great faith
no doubts, no hate

A day of silence
a day of innocence

Give me one day of bliss
where I am no less

A day without any judging
or shame of sinning

Wish I had one day with no desires
or passions that burn like fire

A day of looking within
and shedding old skin

Only one day to walk ahead
no burden or thought in my head

A day to soak in the rain
not living up to any name

I ask
for only one

In a corner of my mind

A shiny dress hanging at the end of my closet
a day soon coming
it will leave

A fire keeps burning, beating wind or wave
it keeps consuming
won't burn me out

A tear from my eye, licking my lash
threatens to fall
and have me grieve

A chain on my wings, tightening all the time
a moment of faith
and I would be free

There is a day I have been dreaming about
it will be
it will be

****
Inspired by a song. Am falling in love with words all over.

The break

The mirror doesn't lie
It isn't moved when I cry
No stars are left in my sky
Only darkness reflected from my eye.

Tears swept away with the smiles
Now remains a crease between the eyes
That too shall fade
When life again invades.

I want to run and hide
Don't want love by my side
I need to be selfish and now
I've just got to figure out how.

Love makes you do silly things
All for a human being
When no good feelings are left
There's plenty emptiness.

It's all been done before
Yes, I did it once more
I'm now trying to learn
To live with the shame.

Never, nothing

There has never been a mentor
Never been anyone greater

Never been a name to swear by
Never been a standby

No one always there
No one who cares

Never been one for letting go
Never been taking it slow

Never been not right
Never been able to win fights

Nothing extraordinary
Nothing valuable for this drudgery

Never been a time there wasn't
Nothing

A new year look at me

One week into the new year and I fail, like many around the world, to see the newness of it all. Yes, I did hug and smile when the clock struck 12 on the last day of the previous one, hoping and expecting something to be new. It was all fake.

I'm still the same. Pissed off, temperamental, with no desire to change. But so are others. Mom and I still cannot go out shopping without a fight, dad still thinks I'm a kid, the world still round and chilly still messes up my stomach.

The new things I can think of are- I'll be a year older, I got three new tops and a realisation that I may actually be a meanie. Not much to boast about, eh? Still I move on wishing happy new year to one and all on the phone, buy a new calendar, wait for the first birthday of the year- to start the same routine all over again.

The old habits that I have brought along with me need to go away and new ones formed. Standard homo sapien behaviour. We are all typical then and so am I.

Between food and words

When the colour rises to my cheeks
you become less discreet

I had so much to say
but you silenced me at the first “Hey”

From then on I was not me
it was just awkward chemistry

We talked of all things dull
with hormones of a tamed bull

The food is an excuse to look away
as with the eyes you make my heart sway

I cannot hide and I don't want to
you got me where I only want you

You're painfully good looking
especially when I'm leaving

One more time
One more way
You've won my heart
What more could I give away?

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Felt old enough to write this. :)

you and me?

If you said to me
at the altar
that you would
love me forever
I would not believe you

If you asked me
to trust you
fully and always
I would
only smile

If you said
I meant more
to you
than anyone else
I would know better

I get jealous
I get angry
my patience runs out
and my love
stays behind the line

I won't be there
always
and many times
I might not
care

Truth is bitter
so you better enjoy
that taste
Now, are we doing this
in a haste?